Beware. This is a very vulnerable blog. I’m not perfect, and I don’t pretend to be. I feel and deal with fear like everyone else does. So here goes…

Sometimes, I fear. And not just fear of the future.

I fear winning. I fear losing. I fear going. And I fear staying. I fear mountains and I fear valleys. I fear a climb. And I fear a fall. I fear spending and I fear saving. I fear serving and I fear selfishness. I fear cleanliness and I fear dirtiness. I fear heights. And I fear depths. I fear loneliness. And I fear relationships. I fear failing and I fear success. I fear sleeping and I fear awakening. I fear the dark. I fear the light. I fear the door shut. I fear the door open. I fear being silent. And I fear being loud. I fear being obscure. I fear being found. I fear being rejected and I fear being loved.

I fear most everything. But you know exactly what I’m talking about. This kind of vulnerability isn’t really spoken of.

Fear causes us to lie in the in between and disguises itself as “balance”. Fear never allows its subject to make a definite. And if we allow it, fear can and will drive us to mediocrity.

For God has not given us a spirit of fear and timidity, but of power, love, and self-discipline. (2 Timothy 1:7 NLT)

Pride is not near worth the relationships I have, or having it replace what has been freely given to me. I’m slowly learning that pride is earned, but a relationship is free.

Pride must be earned but it takes little to nothing to keep.

A relationship is free but it takes everything to keep it.